Welcome

Hi There! Welcome to my blog. I am a thirty something woman living in Las Vegas with some challenges to overcome. I have been struggling with anxiety for a few years. The anxiety has triggered alcoholism, which is also a challenge. I am chubby, tired, and out of focus because of it all. I feel old. Time to turn that around! I plan on tackling my issues head on with changes in my eating, my lifestyle, and in my mind. Welcome to my journey!

 

September 2010
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Damn! I was doing good!

I haven’t had any anxiety for several days, but I just had a little caused by heartburn. Even the heartburn was going down for a minute…must have been those radishes! I just took an herbal…

….later that day…

I took another herbal chill out pill. I am much better now!

16 days sober!!

This weekend I enjoyed

Saturday

  • Egg white veggie omelet
  • Sliced tomato
  • Coffee
  • REAL yogurt
  • Tilapia with rice made enchilada style
  • Dessert

Sunday

  • A bit o’ steak
  • Hawaiian cheeseburger
  • French fries
  • Some small snackie I don’t remember

Love

Today I was reminded that you cannot love someone enough to make them love themselves.

Today I enjoyed

  • Black bean soup
  • Two tomatoes
  • Baked chicken
  • Orange pepper
  • Bread
  • Hersheys Kisses
  • Instant Oatmeal

12 days sober!

How very appropriate… I have an appointment on my “two week sober” anniversary to get new gym shoes!

Detox? Anxiety? Not 100% today

I am guessing its the detox, but my neck glands are swollen again!  I bet the swollen glands are connected to the neck pain I have been experienceing. They are in the same general area. I wonder…

Herbals for anxiety

Well during yesterdays anxiety flare-up, I went to Whole Foods to grab a herbal calm down remedy. I don’t have any more Xanax, and I really don’t want to take anymore. I have never gotten addicted to it, or felt any side effects, but still…It does modify brain chemistry, and I have had my fill of that! So I am trying a product called “3-Way Stress Management System” by a company called Rainbow Light. There were a few choices, but I picked this one because it had niacinamide, a bunch of other B-vitamins, Valerian root, and digestive support herbs. (amongst a bunch of other herbs and vitamins).

I will be testing it out for the next few days, but so far, so good. Its been almost 24 hours of using it. The pills are a little large for me right now, but that’s only because my throat is a little sensitive from the anxiety. (It tightens during attacks)

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Today = No Bueno

Ugh. This morning was very bad for my anxiety. I woke up with a slight stabbing pain in my neck, about 4 inches to the left and one inch up from the base of my throat. I believe this is from a combination of heartburn and sleeping on my arm (I have problems with each).  Unfortunately, it doesn’t matter what I logically “know”. My anxiety went BONKERS! By the time I settled in at work, I couldn’t see straight. Yuckie! I left for an early lunch to go get some herbal supplements for this (I don’t want to take Xanax ever again as much as I love it). Whole foods calmed me down a little bit. I’m also wondering how much of this is detox?

I have already asked my boyfriend for extra hugs and kisses tonight!

Today I enjoyed

  • Coffee with flavored creamer
  • Black Bean soup
  • Green salad w/ Avocado
  • Orange